๑۩۞۩๑ 自由在我以为的自由 ☆╮: 心绎小品

一千万次

Tue, 18 Sep 2007 03:42:15 GMT

忘记了这是我写的还是转载的，毕竟是很久以前的Draft。

Draft: 5/8/2006 9:19 PM

想了一千万次，会怎样遇见你。

穿着漂亮的衣服？带着美丽的笑容？

可怎么也没想到会这样遇见你。

想了一千万次，在你面前呈现最完美的自己。

开朗的笑容，轻松的话语。

却在你面前，眼里只看到完美的你。

男人也很怕寂寞

Tue, 18 Sep 2007 03:32:57 GMT

这是我整理我的blog时找到的一个n年前打好，却没PO出来的一篇观感。

Draft: 11/5/2005 5:22 PM

前些天跟同學吃晚飯时，提起了一个很有趣的話題：男人也很怕寂寞，有時候更甚於女生。

雖説女生上厠所總要結伴，但那通常都只限于中小學時期吧？

沖涼洗澡，需要結伴嗎？發覺有一部分的男生的答案是需要。因爲空蕩的浴室，一邊洗澡一邊聊天比較不會悶。

前些日子，看到了一篇新聞。

兩百嵗小妾相守80 年，相濡以沫同守寡。

兩個老婆婆在80年前丈夫就去世了。兩人一起繼續守護那個家，盡心盡力一手帶大丈夫已留下的孩子4個孩子，只有1個是親生；不願他嫁兩個老婆婆表達了兩人爲了維持那一個家的堅強和毅力。

試問有多少男人會守寡帶大孩子長達80年？姑且不說守寡，只要說男人劈腿的機率就好了，心知肚明。

小男生，腦袋裏就會想要個女朋友；每一個都像惡狼般，看到美女就撲過去。

理由只有一個：我不要自己一個人，我要有專屬陪我的人。聽説男生其實也是很脆弱的。

這一點，我很認同。他們談戀愛時就好像一個小孩子，需要女朋友像媽媽般小心照顧。雖説男人總是粗枝大葉，但那只能說他們不細心。

男生很多時候心思也很細膩的，很敏感，很容易受傷。

畢竟社會自古以來都灌輸了一個概念：男人大丈夫，流血不流淚。

男人就算如何傷心、如何心碎，都必須將其情緒常在心底深處，保留殘留的自尊。

假若有一天會失去身邊的人，他們最會以大男人姿態掩飾害怕。

男生，到底是可惡還是可憐？

P/S:以上的意見大部分是被提到的觀點，只有少部分是個人意見。所以請眾男生不要認爲我歧視你們或什麽的，OK? 謝謝

无法预料的人生

Tue, 11 Sep 2007 17:01:36 GMT

晚上，跟蓝少聊着天，读着老姐的blog，愣了一下。

人生，充满着残酷的现实，和痛苦的真相，无可避免。

唯一的选择，只是看你如何接受和面对。

听过很多人质疑问：上帝为什么会让那么多的痛苦和灾难发生？

我相信，人生的一切不幸，说到底都只是另一些人的错误抉择所造成。

20岁以前，我以为人生也是可以很简单，毫无波折地可能就那么到老。

三年，不长不短，可是已经有太多的以前没有预料过，也不曾认为会发生在我期盼的人生中的事情。以前的自己，真的很天真。

真的感到很无力，没有能力阻止一切最差的可能性。

现在只希望，恳切的祷告：上帝，请让一切就这样尽量维持不变，不要再让更多的伤害到来，不要让人生跌到更深的谷底。

虽然知道这一切一切可能只是让我们几个经历更多的磨练，让我们领悟更多，成为一个可以更好侍奉的人。可是现在还坚强着的我们，如果再多的改变，我不敢确定我还能坚持不崩溃。

请庇佑我们....

三个星期

Mon, 13 Aug 2007 16:47:02 GMT

倒数三个星期

然后一切都会结束

我最后的暑假

好不舍得

快乐甜蜜

美好回忆

尽全力享受

难得的奢侈

最后的时间

全力冲刺

谢谢朋友们

谢谢你们给我的满满快乐

请容许我多了解你

Sun, 08 Apr 2007 13:16:30 GMT

“请容许我多了解你”是一个朋友最近的nick。
不懂他是想对谁说，不过如果有那么一个人对你那么说，你会有什么反应呢？
而你，心里是否想对谁说这一句话吗？

愿意吗？

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 16:25:31 GMT

又是一个凭空冒出的问题：
你，愿意给远距离爱情一个机会吗？

主动。被动

Fri, 06 Apr 2007 08:44:30 GMT

昨天跟朋友msn，脑袋突然跑出一个问题：
你，是会跟人告白的人？
还是等人告白的？

曾经。后来。现在

Mon, 14 Aug 2006 15:53:49 GMT



	曾经。后来。现在

没有受伤害，没有伤心，更没有失恋；所以谢谢各位的关爱，不必想太多，这纯粹是随手写的作品。

how far can we go?

Fri, 05 May 2006 13:33:19 GMT

photo by aileen graphic design by juleen

A deserted & solitude shed, neglectance of all...

Just like the spring that come & go, quietly.. As if it never came..

How far can we go?

晴天。娃娃

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 16:21:45 GMT

晴天娃娃
在乌云密布时
将悲伤散开
让天空晴朗

有人说
它只是一个吊饰
可是只要有心
就有希望
不论雨下得有多大
世界有多阴暗
总会有阳光出现的一天
一个明朗的晴天
只要相信
一定会雨过天晴

距离

Fri, 17 Mar 2006 09:59:56 GMT

你的沉默
让空气更冰了

让我明白

彼此在不同的世界

当彼此的节奏开始有变化
就已经预料
距离会越来越远

曾经的时光
也只能变成共同的美好回忆
并不足于让默契持续下去

在遥远的两地
两端的世界
再也没有共同点
没有话题

幸福

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 04:35:33 GMT

越来越迷惘
生活重心在哪里
迷失了方向
遗失了自己
丢失了自信
忘掉了开心

剩下的
只是对未来的恐惧
一个空壳

不可以自怜自艾
无论如何
都得从沉闷中找出快乐

每天
自己创造一些些的小幸福
~~自欺欺人的幸福~~
属于自己的幸福

珍惜自己还能给自己的幸福
寻找自己希望的快乐

寄不出去的信

Sat, 11 Mar 2006 08:20:12 GMT

有沒有聼過S.O.S.的一首歌，叫作“寄不出去的信”？

我再也找不到那首歌，不過旋律仍在腦海裏。

有沒有寫過寄不出去的信？

當心情澎湃而無處可宣洩的時候，唯有對信紙寫下一切你想對那人說的情感。

然而信裏訴説的心意和愛，卻不敢寄出去給對方？

就像在遠方默默的守候、祝福，卻不願讓對方知道。

哈哈，沒關係。

寫了，沒寄出去也沒關係。

對方不知道也沒關係。

重要的是在寫完了之後，尋找囘了自己，找回了方向。

选择

Fri, 17 Feb 2006 06:54:30 GMT

人生就像一场电影。

不同的是... 电影，你NG了，可以重来。

而人生，就那么一次机会。

很多东西，你一旦作了一个错误的选择，就得为你的选择付出代价。

如果知错了，可能付出的代价会少一些，而你可能会被给于一次从良的机会。

执迷不悟，身边的人事物很多时候会将你的选择一一删除；当你觉悟的时候，你只剩下一条没有回头的路可以走。

即使你不愿意，仍然得沿着那条路走下去，把你的人生过完。

honor your parents

Sun, 05 Feb 2006 14:15:33 GMT

One thing i really like about season greetings advertisement, some are funny while some are just simply touching...

There's this CNY ad abaout 4 old women, sitting together outside their old folks home, having their lunch and talking about their children....

The first three was so proud of their child, saying that how well their child has done.

One said that her son's a surgeon in London, earning thousand and thousand of pounds just with one surgery. Another said that her son's a famous lawyer or something, wotking for a famous law firm or some sort... Only the 4th old lady just kept quiet and liistened.

So when the other three noticed that, they asked her," What about your son? What is your son doing?"

She answered," My son? oh.. My son's doing fine. He's coming to fetch me later."

As the other three are still pondering about her answer, a car stopped at the entrance of the old folks' home and all of them wondered who would it be.

A young man came down and called,"Mom!" and the 4th old lady happily said," oh... that's my son!! He's here! He always takes me everywhere he goes. I make a move. Bye!" and she left with her son and family, heading to Cameron...

leaving behind the 3 old women who felt so proud about their children, but was left to dine alone in the old folks' home...

My tears shed, the first time I saw this ad. I felt so pity for the 3 old lady, they raised their children to be so successful, yet was left forgotten in other part of the wolrd.. sad..

wake up!

Tue, 24 Jan 2006 18:48:04 GMT

i just don't know what's on their mind today.

Why are they that desperate for money? Not that their parents can't afford to feed them or something?

Do they honestly think that without the minimum of education, they can still find a work & survive in the society nowadays?

What are they trying to prove?

Ok, just make it short and simple. My sister's boyfriend,17 stopped schooling and went to learn hair-styling, without completing his SPM. Of course he had a big fight with his dad, he's the only son in the family and which parents on earth would give in for such reason? Just one more year to completing his high-school education and he's giving up....

My sister said as well that she's not interested in studying, and she wants to learn hair-styling. -_-" thank God she's still has the right mind to continue her form 5, though i doubt her seriousness in doing her best in it..

From A Distance

Sat, 12 Nov 2005 04:52:03 GMT

Yet another poem written some years back. Copyrighted @ www.poetry.com

From A Distance

Looking at you from a distance
I know my heart is lost
Lost in the love for you
Which will never ever come true
Looking at you from a distance
I know that you're not mine
Not in the past nor in the future
Your heart never was for me.
When you're in front of me
I feel as if we're miles apart
When we're miles apart
I feel that you're so close
With just a single distance call.
So near yet so far
Is this what they call love?
I wish I'll have the courage
I wish I'll have the strength
To walk up to you
To tell you I really, really love you
Loving you, is what I feel for you

Aileen Sew
Copyright ©2003 Aileen Sew

考验

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 15:14:36 GMT

some words written some time back, added with a splendid picture..

Love You

Sat, 05 Nov 2005 14:43:05 GMT

A random piece I wrote some years back.... College time...

You can check it out @ www.poetry.com

Love You

Wide awake in the morning mist
My thought is filled with your presence
Feel like being by your side
To wish you morning
And tell you I love you
Sleeping alone in the lonely night
My heart is filled with your presence
Weeping quietly into the cold air
And wish you're still here
And tell you I miss you

I want to go away from this land
To where you are
But it is yet time for me
To go back to the sanctuary
So I can just remain here
Continue to love you and miss you
Till we meet again
In the sanctuary

Aileen Sew
Copyright ©2003 Aileen Sew

回忆心情╰☆╮

Mon, 31 Oct 2005 17:03:44 GMT

昨天我到朋友的房间去参观

看到他的一只手表

他说他是挺喜欢那个款式

不过他再也不会戴它了

因为那是她送他的礼物

那只手表现在对他而言

想必是过去的甜美和回忆的痛

我的手表是因为我很喜欢那个款

虽然那也是因为某个人也有一个

不过那是我自己买的

到现在我仍然很喜欢那个表

仍然戴着它

偶尔提醒我曾经的梦幻和天真

最近朋友们的心情都比较蓝

一直回忆起

从前的同伴朋友

曾经让自己牵挂的那个人

曾经的童话滋味

朋友

曾经的创伤让它过去吧

曾经的同伴祝福他们吧

我们

回不了从前唯有前进继续寻找

遗失的自己

幸福的自己

快乐的自己

it's time again..

Thu, 13 Oct 2005 16:55:11 GMT

I'm in a mess.

Everyone's around me is unbearable.. from my cousin Benny to my gang of friends, everyone..

Everything's wrong... the way they handle things, the things that they think is fun & exciting..

What's wrong with me?

I know i'm getting out of track...

The feeling of trapping in a place, and no place to run & hide is coming back..

I'm not being myself again..

The last time I feel like this was back in college, and it's been so long..

I'm being critical again...

Everything in my life now is about complaining & blaming...

This is so not myself...

I'm so wrong, so wrong to realise & to admit that i'm ill...

It's time again... to seek & to learn...

" Faith is not faith if it is only theoretical.

Faith becomes faith when it is actual, practical, experimental."

~Woodrow Kroll

Miss You.

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 09:48:28 GMT

我把属于过去的记忆

折叠，抚平，

把思念化作信鸽，

带着我飞过沧海，

飞过桑田，

飞到你身边。

Today is Yee Siew's birthday. She's a slim & tall girl, with a brilliant mind, and a quiet personality. She's simply wonderful. As she's now in Guangzhou, celebrating her 2nd birthday abroad, I just wanna wish her a very happy birthday~~!!

The bookmark beside is just for you..

Today is all about experiments, experiments & reports. Well, we're supposed to finished up 3 reports for anatomy & hand up by tomorrow but as the usual lazy me, I dragged until now and so I'll just have to be real busy tonight.... *sob*

Child's Cry

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 17:30:59 GMT

Found this piece somewhere in my notebook, written some time back. Just thought of posting it up...

好久好久都沒有見到你

懷念你の聲音

懷念你の氣息

你告訴我我可信任你

你會陪伴我度過一切

支持我帶我尋找幸福

你說你會帶我走出迷惘

不再做一次迷途羔羊

Today + Tomorrow

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 12:07:33 GMT

一份寄托，

一份心情，

一段故事，

今天過了就是明天，

風過了就無痕。

Bought a packet of bookmarks with sweet little picture & words on them.

This is one of the bookmarks which is near to my mood. As my mood goes cloudy today, I hope eveverything will be sunny again tomorrow...

Bought a new Snoopy mug just now. Hope that this will last....

守候

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 17:29:21 GMT

Switched on my notebook today & found a piece I wrote sometime ago in June...

I forgot what gave me the inspiration to write this but I think I wanted to dedicate it to someone back then...

我想成为你唯一的守候

陪伴你不让你寂寞难受

然而你却不喜欢被约束

希望得到选择的自由

相信你让你得到你想要的所有

成为你故事的旁观者

静静的看着故事的发展

看到了情非得已的情节

明知道只有受伤的结局

却只能当个帮凶看着你走进陷阱

心痛却只能无动于衷

多说也只会让你更难受

默默的退到你的背后

要记得你永远有我这个朋友

sky

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 19:16:04 GMT

summer sky taken from the window...

终于明白，

一个人是无法抵挡所有事情的。

有时候一朵白云的阴影，也会令人窒息。

风轻柔地吹散阴影，小鸟轻松地衔走白云。

微风可以做到的，我未必能做到。

小鸟可以做到的，我未必能做到。

你能做到的，我未必能做到。

~幾米《我的心中每天开出一朵花》

水晶球

Tue, 28 Jun 2005 19:45:04 GMT

你听过魔力水晶球吗？

你相信魔力水晶球的存在吗？

你见过它吗？

人生就像一个水晶球

很多人试图看透水晶球

看透自己的未来

但是看来看去

只有一片空白

他们不知道

水晶球的存在

只是给人们一个希望

它不会告诉我们未来

想象一下

看得到未来了

你又能做一些什么？

你能改变什么？

只能整天提心吊胆的过日子

人也不要变得像水晶球

因为一旦所有事情都摊裸

就等于将伤害的权利给他人

受伤害的最终是自己

人

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 04:31:00 GMT

人，果真是怪。当你知道有人可以依赖时，你就会放手把一切交给别人处理。认为既然跟你那么熟了，帮助你是理所当然的；不必去顾及人家的感受。自己只需要待在温室里当一朵小花。

只有等到换了新的环境，直到可以帮忙的人已不在；脑袋里才会出现“良心”，怕会麻烦别人。才会打算自力更生。

所以说，一个人不会因为没有了另一个人而活不下去。自以为自己是一个很重要的人，是错误的想法。往往你以为自己对他很重要，到头来只不过是个被利用的家伙。

自己

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 16:10:51 GMT

有些事情，真的足以让一个人有一失足成千古恨的感慨和无奈。

事情过去了，你原谅了自己的愚昧，你走出了自己加于自身上的阴影。然而，事情永远就会遗留在大家的心中。

没有特意的遗忘，只是不想再提起。人，却总是喜欢有意无意地揶揄他人。

想要解释，却没有人有兴趣知道真相。人，总是愿意相信比较有趣的版本。无奈，也只能一笑而过。

不能否认，也无法忘记。因为是过去做的傻事，造就了现在的自己。

幸福

Wed, 15 Jun 2005 16:25:41 GMT

“幸福并不意味着一切都得十全十美

幸福也许就是记住那些微不足道的小事”

It's impossible for things to remain the same forever. Life changes. Often when things happen, the first thing that comes into our mind is disaster. We start to get gloomy and negative thoughts come into our mind.

“I'm a loser. The world abandoned me. How could they do this to me…” leads us to anger.

What lies in front of us is the feel that we're losing everything we have.

Always remember, without losing, there will be no gaining.

Everything in life will change for the better.

Encounter

Sat, 11 Jun 2005 12:31:01 GMT

“I'm afraid that I might forget our story,” you said. You decided to write it as a story, and so the journey began…

Chapter 1

It was yet another sunny day, boring class.

Weeks ago, the lecturer asked us to get some books for his class. The materials need to be ordered all the way from England, he told us. He said the book was published months ago specially for our course, and we can't find it locally yet. And so the whole class did, we ordered the book since the lecturer recommended it.

The package of materials finally arrived today and the lecturer asked us to collect our books up front. Some of the students were complaining to themselves on why they paid so much for a book that thin!

But there's a girl, yet to collect her books, was thinking frustratingly about how to get rid of them. Why? Because she bought a photocopied version of those days ago, half-priced. Reluctantly, she went up to the front to collect her books.

The whole lesson was used up just to distribute the books, and some questions were given down according to them.

The bell rang and the class was dismissed. The girl walked out of the class, still thinking a way to get rid of the book. She saw a guy, a guy just transferred into the class today, new-comer talking to the lecturer. She overheard their conversation about the books. Obviously the new guy was worrying about the books as he just came. The lecturer said it's rather impossible for him to order the book for him all the way from Britain so he has to figure out a way himself. Well, it does take 3 weeks for the books to be shipped, and it's rather costly.

“Thank God, it's a great chance!” She thought.

So when the lecturer went off, she quickly walked up to the guy.

“I'm sorry but I overheard that you want the books just now?” She asked politely.

“Yup. But the lecturer says he can't order for me. What should I do now?”

“Actually, I wanted to sell my book as I already have a copy for myself. But I ordered these books weeks ago. Do you mind having them? As you know as well, it's new. Just got them.”

“Really? Great! How much do they cost? I'll pay you back tomorrow!” He answered joyously.

“Sure! By the way, you're new in the class, right?”

“Yeah. This is my first day here.”

“Oh gosh… We're gonna be late for the next class. Let's go, shall we?”

They chatted along the way as they rushed for the next lesson. And that's their first encounter.

* * *

There's always a story between 2 person. Friends, couple, collegues, pets, or even a stranger.The way they meet, could be called Chapter 1 of the relationship between them. Their first impression, their first conversation... This is the first chapter of us ~ me and a friend. What's your chapter about?

1sland

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 16:06:47 GMT

你知道吗？

印尼是一个群岛。它，代表了成千上万的大小岛屿。

其中，只有六千多个岛是有居民的，剩下的都是无人岛。

印尼外岛，有很多小得可怜的岛。

它们，不能拥有自己的天地。人们一步，就跨过了它。

没有人，肯花精神去为它们取名。

没有人，去注意这些没资格培植出花草的小岛。

————————————————————————

群岛，看似团结似朋友。

然而它们之间，或近或远，都有海水将它们隔开。

就像一道裂痕，小岛们无法跨越它们之间的那一道墙。

它们永远无法向彼此靠近。

它们，一辈子都是孤岛。。。

默默无名的孤岛。。

飞蛾

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 13:48:05 GMT

昨夜
看见了一只
可悲的飞蛾

是晚了吗？
眼睁睁的看着飞蛾，
扑向那雄雄的烈火，
我却不能做些什么。。。

是太迟了。。。
她回眸对着我在笑，
她说她得到了温暖，
但是她却还不知道。。。

以为越是飞向前，
就越觉得温暖吗？

不。。。
越是飞向前，
虽然越是觉得温暖。。。
但同时就越接近危机和悲剧了。。。

我。。。
不是不想做什么，
而是不能做什么。。。

无奈。。。无言。。。沉默。。。叹息。。。

~笨蛋客串

失而复得

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 15:39:09 GMT

当时你放弃一切

离我而去

我哀求呐喊哭泣

却挽不回你

我让悲痛随时间离开

不在原地徘徊

离开这片寒冷地带

期待另一个绿叶的到来

我找到了我的香格里拉

不再流连于你留下的过往

你竟然回来说

如果再放开是你终身的遗憾

看我抉择难过疑惑

难不成会让你快乐？

决定了不再受你诱惑

你的遗憾不是我的过错

我要我的香格里拉

过崭新的生活

P/S: 这作品纯属虚构，敬请不要以为这是我的故事。 :)

花儿和杯子

Fri, 03 Jun 2005 12:38:42 GMT

今天

又再次的见证到了生命的面貌

世上每一样事物

都敌不过时间的催促

每一个生命

都会随着光阴的流失

慢慢的凋零

孤独的离去

再美丽的花儿

也是有枯萎的时候

它拥有过盛开高贵的一刻

吸引着大众的目光

现在也得沦落到被遗弃的下场

静静的躺在黑色的地方

等待被腐化重新回归大自然

陪伴着花儿的瓶子

孤寂的回到原来的位置

当个靓丽的杯子

はなとアリス

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 17:21:51 GMT

一切从谎言开始

我们知道了彼此的存在

创造虚构的回忆

跟你一起追随

若有似无的一段感情

当一切回到现实我选择离开

说了我爱你却不想让你明白

好让我们真的变成彼此的记忆

MV: mms://mmc.daumcast.net/mmc/1/500/0902311000303h.wmv/

梦中梦

Tue, 31 May 2005 15:41:59 GMT

像是世上最悲惨的故事

不幸一连串的接踵而来

吓醒了只是梦

放心之余发觉

梦只是预兆

企图改变故事改变不了结局

无力阻止

无助的看着悲剧上演

心情沉重伤悲愤怒

想呐喊想哭泣想挽留

惊醒了松一口气

一切悲剧只是梦中梦

回首

Fri, 27 May 2005 16:40:50 GMT

我以为我走了很长的一段路

可当我暮然回首我还在原地踏步

身边的人都走了

剩下一个我站在微风中

看着周围陌生的风景

随着时间褪色慢慢地被漂白

不要不想停留在那儿

害怕生命的色彩也随着退色

没有选择的余地

唯有向前走

希望可以追上熟悉的身影

遗忘

Fri, 27 May 2005 03:57:35 GMT

为什么
何时开始
有了坏习惯
遗忘的习惯

我忘了自己
忘了梦想
忘了我的喜好

忘了我遗忘了
星空的颜色
草地奔跑的感觉
大雨下的笑声
森林的气味
小溪的清澈

我忘了
热忱童心简单
生命中的奇迹
我都遗忘了
我要记却回忆不起

唯一的记忆
对生活的疲惫

戏子人生

Thu, 26 May 2005 13:25:42 GMT

每个人打从出生以来就被赐予了一个使命，一个戏子的任务。

每一个人的生命都是一个剧本，里面可以有无数个故事。有些，你是主人翁；而有些，你只是过路人。只要你曾经出现在我故事的镜头里，哪怕只是那一幕，你我之间就有无限故事发展的可能性。其中，可能变成我是你故事里的客串。

每一个人，能演出的机会也就那么一次，所以每一个都很想拚命的扮演好自己的角色。勾心斗角、暗里伤人的情景，都是难免不了。很多人都戴上了面具，怕如果疏忽了那么一次，就会因不敬业的理由被淘汰。

有些人的生命，是看得到的剧本，他们的人生故事连小学生也猜得出来般的简单。有些人的故事，是看不到的；就像一部耐人寻味的电影，有着出乎意料之外的情节。

我，看不见我的剧本；但我相信它会是一个很精彩的故事。你呢？

Lost

Fri, 20 May 2005 19:08:03 GMT

Wrote this 2 years ago... Just kinda dig it out & re-post it. No, I don't have depression now... You may check it out at http://www.poetry.com/ .Yes, I do have copyright on this.

Lost

I am lost in my heart,
I am lost in the run,
I am lost in the world of maze.
Where can I find
The answers that I need,
Answers to the questions in my mind.
Where can I run?
Where can I hide,
when I need shelter from the storm.
When can I leave?
When will I be released,
from this hypocrite, surreal world.
I am tired and exhausted,
I've tried but I've failed
I cried but to no avail.
But I know there's someone
waiting,
longing,
for me to return to His kingdom.

~Copyright ©2003 Aileen Sew

颜色

Fri, 20 May 2005 13:18:57 GMT

我曾经很喜欢涂颜色。

买了一堆的彩色书，尽情地为那些白图案上色。

但每一次上色，我都会犹豫：我该从哪里开始？我一直都觉得，有颜色的东西就仿佛会有生命。如果我从头部开始，那位少女不就会很辛苦吗？因为她会有了思想，但她不能自由的活动。如果我由她的手脚开始上色，那些肢体不就乱了阵吗？

我总会想：等我涂完了颜色，图案中的少女、动物、植物... 全都会活过来，就像我是一位魔法师，让他们有了生命。所以我涂颜色要很小心。

随着时间的过去，我对涂颜色这玩意儿越冷了。因为我发觉魔法是不存在的。我发觉画图比上色来的有趣多了，我发觉黑白的图案越来越吸引我。如果世界里只有黑和白，就不用去烦恼到底什么颜色最好看，什么配搭最好。

从彩色变成了黑白。从梦幻走进了现实。人生变幻无常，我往后又会变得怎样？

画上了句号的故事

Tue, 17 May 2005 18:36:07 GMT

很久以前，很想写一个故事。

然而，故事还来不及提笔，你就已为它想好了一个结局~ 一个不好的结局。顿时，脑海里所有的构想，完全没有了意义。

现在，你告诉我：你有兴趣写故事。

你试探性地将一块小石子丢进了平静的湖面，然后转身走掉。

你引起了涟漪，却不敢看它扩散到多远。

你给了我一叠稿纸，上面只写了一个“序”字。你叫我写序，却不说你故事里的构想。

我抓破了脑袋，决定了。

我的“序”，就只有一个句号。那，也就是我给你的故事。

一个画上了句号的故事。

'Entering' Love

Fri, 06 May 2005 00:21:09 GMT

By pressing the key, I'm entering my love & wishes into your heart..

blank

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 14:19:40 GMT

Everyone know how hard it is for a person to express his care & love to someone directly, face to face. Thus, writing is created, for people to express themselves better...

I once thought the most valuable gift a person can get is a letter full of love. A letter written with passion & sincerity. A letter that would touch your heart & make you wanna cry. But it ain't easy as well now to most people. Love letter, poems, song composing.. is such a difficult task.

That is what I feel now. I want to write but I don't know what should I write. I need inspiration. Looking at the blank paper, my mind is blank as well.

P/S: When I found this picture, it was given the title "hell" as the description goes:

"Handing in a blank paper during exam is like entering hell..."